I have time...

I have some time, right now. I am going to try and use it wisely. Writing. The goal? A blog post every day... Okay, now, before y'all get all excited (or let's be honest role your eyes and scream no) this is something I have decided to do, today.

It, however, DOES NOT mean it is something I shall be able to accomplish. Why? Well, the long and the short of it is, despite the fact I ALWAYS have something to say, I ALSO suffer from maybe, THE worse symptom of the ADHD thing and that is, failure to follow-through. Basically, I can want to do something today, but perhaps I'll want to do flower arranging tomorrow. So yanno... Anyways, I had to slip into town this morning to put in a repeat prescription for my daughter and on the way, I was listening to my favourite walking/moving album, the good old 'Danger days: The true lives of the fabulous killjoys' by MCR and when he sang the words RITALIN RATS! I felt completely empowered by that moniker.

Now, I am no longer on Ritalin, but I still am on a derivative of it 'methylphenidate'. I realised, despite what the overall theme of the song and album. I am proud to be a Ritalin rat. I don't see it as something to feel shame about (an emotion, I never feel - shameless, is very definitely more accurate) but I, actually, am proud.

Because for me? Being a Ritalin rat is, a scar that denotes triumph over incredible, forever escalating, odds. My ADHD is full of limitations, but is full to the brim with advantages and 'methylphenidate' allows me to limit the limitations (sic) and take full advantage of those very advantages.

ADHD makes my writing experience both frustrating and extremely rewarding. The frustration stems from forgetting plotlines, forgetting changes that need to be followed throughout the manuscript... Yeah, that forgetting thing? CAN make the experience, EXTRAORDINARILY difficult, however...

Balance that with, experiencing COMPLETE objectivity and coming to that manuscript with completely new eyes in only 48 hours at most!

That isn't to be sniffed at my friend. ...and that goes without mentioning the extreme, and I do mean EXTREME, far reaching analogies I can grasp and pull together with just a few hours of daydreaming!

SO YEAH! I'M A RITALIN RAT! And if I am perfectly honest? I WOULDN'T BE ANYTHING ELSE! So, I hope to write a blog post every day until I have all I need to re-proof- read my final edit, but if I don't? Well, you gotta take the bad with the good, aincha?

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